Loving this song...

Sometimes a song strikes me as eerily appropriate in certain situations... this is one of the most recent ones. I loooove this song. It sounds so sweet... but isnt it really about cheating? Hmmm. But I still love the song. :)

Lips of An Angel by Hinder

Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late

Clear the Confusion

The world of adult relationships is such a confusing place. It was so much easier when we were children and could pass notes saying “Do you like me? Check yes or no,” or “Do you want to be my girlfriend/ boyfriend? Check yes or no.” Life was simple then.

So, what constitutes as a date these days? Just because a male and a female go to dinner or to a movie together, doesn’t necessarily make them any more than friends. Is the determining factor whether or not you go Dutch? I think not. Friends often take turns paying for one another’s meals or movie tickets. I often do that with my girlfriends, so why is it different just because the friend is a male? At what point do we cross the threshold from friendship into a relationship?

The problem occurs when one person or the other has feelings of more than friendship for the other, but can’t determine whether they are “dating” or just spending time together as friends. Then you have the awkwardness of wanting to ask but being afraid you will ruin the friendship if the other person doesn’t feel the same way. Then you just dance around in limbo wondering and hoping that if they feel something, they will speak up. But what if they are playing the same game and waiting for you to bring it up? What if you get caught in the endless cyclical pattern of both waiting on one another to have the guts to just make a move?

An even more confusing situation can occur when the two have dated in the past and decided to become friends. Then, it is even more difficult to determine that fine line that we dance between friends or more. You have already crossed the line once, so it is easy to engage in behavior that might be considered flirtatious or more on the dating side of the line. But is it really intended to be? Or is it just a matter of being more comfortable with one another?

Someone needs to set some rules to clear up this confusion. I think we need to create red flags that will let us know whether we are on a date or not, without having to directly discuss the situation. Anyone care to begin?

All That Matters Is That I Am Happy, Right?

So, I have lost some more weight and I thought I would reward myself by shopping for a new cute shirt to wear out on Saturday night. Yes... A shirt... as in one, sigular. Well... no such luck. I debated for a day or so on whether or not to buy an absolutely gorgeous shirt that I wanted so badly from Cache. And we all know what the prices are like in Cache. So, I take my ever faithful shopping friend with me, and we both buy our shirts at Cache. But can we really stop there? No way!

We continue on so she can find shoes to match her new shirt and I end up buying some wonderfully yummy smelling DKNY perfume which I really didn't need to buy after the rather pricey new shirt. So, we get out of there and head to target to buy me some makeup since I have run out. Can I just go straight to the makeup and get what I came for. No way! I have to buy a Bon Jovi t-shirt, some new slacks, a blazer and THEN I can pick out soem new makeup.

All I can say is thank God for credit cards! I know I am goingn to end up with debt up to my eyeballs... but for right now! For now, I have new cute smaller clothes and I am soooo happy! We'll worry about the bills tomorrow!!

Is It Friday Yet??

This week has really drug on and on. It's only Wednesday and I really wish it were Thursday so that tomorrow would be Friday! I have so many things planned this weekend that I can't wait to do. Pedicures and other girly things Friday night! Saturday morning: headed to the lake with the girls! Saturday evening: dinner with the band guys (hopefully) and then shaking my as to some StrongFold at Off the Wagon! I am so excited again! But can't get too trashed b/c I have a first date on Sunday and I would hate to be feeling all crappy for that. That wouldn't be a good first impression, LOL!

So, lots to look forward to this weekend! Then next weekend is looong and I was really hoping to get out of town for a couple of days, but no one will confirm anything!! So we shall see what happen : )

Habitual

Today I began to notice how habitual my life has become. The alarm goes of at the same time each morning and I often mutter some sort of curse at it each time. I get up and shuffle straight to the bathroom and began performing my morning rituals. This morning, I wonder if there is a reason for the order I do things. Is it because I have found the most time efficient and best method of getting ready, or is it a slight case of OCD? The only variances in my routine involve whether or not I must walk downstairs to get what I am going to wear out of the dryer or not.

I gather my things and put them together in the same order. I slip on my shoes at the bottom of the stairs in the same place where I slide them off the everyday. I tuck my keys and phone in my purse in the same pockets in the same way. Is it to keep from losing them or is it another sign of OCD?

I always arrive just a few minutes early for work and since all other doors are locked, I always take the elevator. Since I am one of the first to arrive, I always hit “P” in the elevator before getting off to send it back down to the parking level for whoever arrives next. Is this my way of being polite or yet another sign?

I login to my computer and begin to open software, always in the same order. Is the order a matter of convenience or preference? I’m not sure. I can’t decide if the repetitiveness is my vein attempt to combat my severe forgetfulness or if it is just pure habit? It’s an interesting question. Should I break from the norm? Should I try something new? Would it throw off my whole day if I merely did things in a different order? Surely not. So, my mission tomorrow is to break out of this box and try something new!

Tired

Tired but not sleepy. Restless. Too many thoughts whirling around in my brain. I am sleepy while busy all day... but when it comes time to rest, I can't. I can't stop thinking, processing, over-analyzing, picking apart every little detail of what is bothering me today. And every night there is something new for me to dissect. Maybe I should stop the person/peope who keep giving me the issues and then I won't have a problem? Or would I just find a problem to have somewhere else? I stress myself. I let myself worry and wonder when I should just be happy and move where ever my path takes me. But the problem is, I am competely impatient. I want to see the bends in the road before I get to them. I don't want to be surprised and I don't want to be jerked around anymore. I can't do it again.! I am tired of being hurt and mistreated. But honestly I have no one to blame but myself because I have allowed once again for this to happen and let myself invest feelings where I should not. Time to suck it up and move on... again. Tired. So tired of moving on. Goodnight.

Who Needs Tomorrow...

Things will work out in the end. They always do. It's funny how just when you start to give up on something, everything changes.

I had an excellent time tonight! I met a bunch of new and wonderful people and I even reconnected with some old friends that I never expected to talk to again. I feel wonderful... though maybe I shouldn't. Who know? I am just going to go crawl into my big comfy bed and continue to smile and not worry about what tomorrow might bring, but be happy about what tonight brought. Thanks for taking me out and showing me a good time. I really needed that!

Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da!

Someone close to me told me to live my life by that philosophy and he was right... "Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da, Life goes on, bra!" That's all I am trying to do. Get on with the rest of my life and head in a direction that is going to make me happy. I am not quite certain what that will entain yet, but I know several things that it will not include. In the mean time, I am enjoying this journey and deciding which way to go at which fork in the road. I know I will be happy where ever I end up landing and with whoever is there at the end.

"A rolling stone gathers no moss, but leaves a trail of busted stuff" --DMB

What Shall I do?

For those of you who I haven't whined to already, I thought I should let you know, I have not fallen off the face of the Earth. MySpace has been firewalled at work and I will no longer be on during office hours. I might actually have to start working now?

If anyone needs to get in touch with me during the day, shoot me an email or a text message. I missed everyone this weekend and hope I will be able to join the group in the next outing since I get paid this week! Hope everyone had a great weekend. I did... aside from snakes falling out of trees and friends stepping in holes and breaking their ankles... yes, other than that... my weekend was great!

Funny Story For the Day

While IMing with my sister-in-law today, she gave me her new cell phone number and I programmed it into my phone. I sent her a text and this is the conversation that transpired:

ME: Testing, testing... 1... 2... 3...
JENNIFER: Who is this?
ME: Amy. ha ha
JENNIFER: Amy who? (She knows many Amy's, in fact there were 3 of us in her
wedding party)
ME: Your sister silly. Ha ha.
NOT JENNIFER: You have the wrong number!

How embarrassing is that?? I double-checked with her and she did give me the wrong number. I wonder who I was talking to? Ha ha ha. And during this time, I also managed to spill hot coffee down between my boobs. And since I am a sugar fiend, it was nice and sticky. What a lovely day I have had!

I'm on fire, I'm on fire!

Yes, I am going to see Talladega Nights: Ballad of Ricky Bobby tonight. I am looking forward to the movie as well as spending time with friends. I have caught up with old friends and made some new ones, and its really nice to have some trustworthy girlfriends again.

This weekend certainly had its ups and downs. I stayed out pretty late hanging out with the girls. Then, I didn't sleep in like usual on Saturday morning, because I went to Jennifer's (my sister-in-law) graduation at AUM. (Congrats again, Jennifer!) Then I had a wedding shower/bbq for an old family friend. It was nice to catch up with some people I haven't seen in a long time.

Then, I had a date that night. We were supposed to have dinner, but I got too full on junk at the bbq, so we ended up just hanging out my house watching movies and drinking lots of beer. I had a great time and look forward to doing it again. I am enjoying getting to know him and we went to the same high school, we know lots of the same people, etc. so we have lots to talk about. We watched Derailed, which I highly recommend to anyone who likes a good suspense movie. And of course, I recommend it to anyone who thinks Clive Owen is hot!

So, I hope everyone is having a great day... as great as a Monday can possibly be :)