Decisions

I can be such a strange person. Or so I’m told. I have often called myself the most indecisive person in the world. Sometimes I absolutely cannot decide what I want for dinner, which shirt I should wear with these pants, or what color I should choose for this particular design. But it seems like the more significant and more important things, I seem to be able to decide upon with no problems. I guess when it comes to how I feel about something or someone, I can really decide what is the right thing to do. I decided what car to buy in a day? Yes, I did some research on the internet ahead of time so I know a little about what I had in mind. But when I saw it, then drove it, I knew it was what I wanted.

I guess I can say the same about big decisions in my person life. It didn’t take me long at all to decide that Scott is just the kind of person I’ve been looking for. And the strangest part is that it took me completely by surprise. We went out on a few dates but I was blind to him for several reasons. For one, I was still a good bit tangled up with “the ex” and all the craziness that surrounds him. I think I also was not expecting the man of my dreams to come in quite the package that Scott is. Please don’t get me wrong; I’m not saying there is something or anything at all wrong with Scott. I’m simply saying that being a nearly 6 foot tall, 25 year old (at the time) female who lives in Montgomery… I didn’t expect to be so completely compatible with a 5’7”, bald, 35 year old (at the time) man who lives an hour away from me. But I’m so glad that I was completely wrong. And more importantly, I’m so glad that he was patient enough, or perhaps persistent enough, to stick it out long enough for me to realize how wrong I was.

After about the second informal double date, I pushed him away and told him I only wanted to be friends. And at the time, I was certain that was what I wanted. But we continued to bump into each other through our mutual friends. The more time I spent with Scott and got to know the real him, and not the guy who was trying too hard to impress me, I really enjoyed his company. After a fun Friday night just hanging out, I decided on the spur of the moment to invite him to go to a concert with me… that night... in Pascagoula, Mississippi. So our first real date, the first thing we ever did alone together, we drove (part of it accidentally) through two states without my even knowing his last name! The conversation on that drive was so entertaining that we managed to drive 75 miles past our exit. I think that says a lot about our compatibility.

After that trip, I was sure Scott was what I wanted. The only uncertainties I still had then, were whether or not he was still seeing other people and whether or not he was interested in being in a relationship? It didn’t take long for us to iron all of those sorts of things out and we’ve been practically inseparable since, despite the physical distance between us. And I must say, this past year has been one of the best of my life. Being with Scott has taught me what being in a real, mutually beneficial, open and honest adult relationship should be like. I’ve never been able to trust anyone the way I trust him and its such a wonderful feeling.

So, what spurred this sudden confession of emotions? Because Scott is trying to make a pretty big decision himself right now. We’ve been looking at houses. And when I say WE have been looking, I mean that we are looking for a new house for him for now, but with the potential of it being our home if we eventually decide to get married. We’ve found one house that we both absolutely love. It’s a beautiful and huge historic home in Lafayette, Alabama. It is more than 150 years old with 6 bedrooms, 2.5 baths and a pool. It’s everything we think we want in a house. But with a house of that age and size come many responsibilities. And Scott, unlike me, is not one to make a rash decision of this magnitude. So, I guess in a way, this is my way of expressing how I feel about the situation. I want him to know that I love him and support him no matter what. Either way, I’m really excited to be beginning this new adventure with him and can’t wait to see where the road takes us next!